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Sticks and Stones May Break My Bones, But Names will Make Me Fat

I read this article today from NPR, “Hating On Fat People Just Makes Them Fatter.”  It’s interesting because here we are in 2013 and it’s one of the first time a study like this has been done.  I am a little amazed by that fact but, given the state of America today compared to even 20 years ago, I suppose it’s not that shocking.

eating cinnarolls

The study observed over 6,000 people who had been discriminated for whatever reason.  Four years later, they followed up with those people and found that those who had cited weight as their discrimination factor were still obese and possibly even heavier than they had been before.  While I’d like to think America is over being racist and discriminatory, I know that it’s not.  Look in the department stores.  See if you can find the “Women’s” sizes.   If you can, how small is the section compared to the rest of the store?  Then compare the prices…

I remember having times in my life where people would tell me that no one would want me if I kept gaining weight.  Mind you I was around 13, 14, 15 when those things were said.  It makes an impact to hear words like that come from someone who thinks they are “trying” to help you.  I remember feeling like I wasn’t good enough then so what was the point?

If only that were as deep as it went...

If only that were as deep as it went…

The worst part about it all was trying to understand that what was being said was being said out of love.  I remember on time, for a birthday in middle school, I had a friend come and stay with me at my Nana’s and she made a comment along the lines that it was too bad I wasn’t thin and pretty like my friend.  It was her weird way of trying to encourage me to work on my weight.  Needless to say, that was the last time that friend did anything with me.  I wonder sometimes if I reacted badly after that comment – it’s quite possible.

I am fascinated that people needed a study to realize that these types of “motivators” are really detrimental to people who are struggling with obesity.  Some people think it’s as simple as “Just don’t eat it.”  Sadly, for some of us, it’s not that simple.

The worst part is when you are working on it, because there is no quick solution that instantly transforms your body, people don’t always know you are working on it.  People just let their mouths flap, despite the fact that you are going to your doctor every three months for check-ins and you go to your weekly weight watchers meeting.  They don’t see it.  They just see the fat person that they assume is lazy.

As I work toward my goals, I have to not get angry at those comments.  I have to let go of the hurt that was caused by those “helpful” comments.  I have to just move forward and keep working toward a better me, no matter what names are thrown my way.

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The Scale and Her Numbers

Since February of 2012, my health hasn’t been so great.  Two operations later, I’m finally ready to get back to my weight loss goals.  That also means that I’ll probably be posting a little more about my journey.  I feel like calling it a journey is cliché.  I mean, yes, it’s a mental journey in a manner of speaking but I’m not really going anywhere.  According to dictionary.com, I fall more closely to the 4th definition of journey: passage or progress from one stage to another: the journey to success.  I guess that works.

more than a day

Tonight was my weigh in at my trusty Weight Watchers meeting.  It was ugly. I’m fairly confident it was ugly for a few reasons.

1) I usually stop eating and drinking around 2 pm on weigh in day.  Today, however, I was drinking and grazing right up until 4pm.  My meeting is at 5:30.

2) It has been ridiculously humid which means any kind of moisture is staying in my body.

3) I purposely wore jean shorts, knowing that today was the baseline.

4) I have been horribly lying to myself in my tracker.

I could continue along on all the wrong things I have done and all the things I should be doing, but honestly, what would be the point?  I know what I did and it’s time to make the changes I need to make before the clothing situation gets any more depressing.

I am sorry if these kinds of posts annoy you.  Skip them if you want.  I just sometimes feel that there is some kind of extra accountability in posting this experience to anyone who is willing enough to read it.   Also, you will understand if there is a sudden tone shift in my posts…those will be the days I’m working on removing one of the not so good foods, like sugar and eventually diet coke, from my diet.  I promise to not make you want to go insane but, I will probably check-in weekly with updates ( because in my mind, you all want me to succeed!) and maybe a recipe or two as I get back to whole foods and clean eating.

It’s time to get healthier!

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A Loss on the Scale and a Doctor’s Advice

I have been toying with this post for a few days now and when the power went out today during Sandy, I had lots of time to really get my thoughts in order and write it.  Thursday was my weekly date with the scale.  If you’ve noticed, I haven’t posted much in this department.  Why?  Well, dear reader, the results haven’t been so great lately.  I gained back quite a bit since my surgery back in August.  By quite a bit I mean almost 10 lbs.  In the grand scheme of my personal weight loss journey, that’s a drop in the bucket.  But considering how hard I have to work for every single ounce, I was slightly devastated.  It was slow coming back on.  I am slowly backtracking.  Not good.

This week, I had a very good loss, a loss I needed to have.  Down 2.2!  That’s amazing.  Movement in the right direction.   A loss to keep me moving forward and not giving up. Why, then, was I not thrilled?

There are so many things that I allow to get in my path.  Emotions, stress, conversations, and all the small things in life get some kind of weird power over me and I let them.  It’s as simple as that.  I. Let. Them.  Part of it is because I have somehow worked it into my brain that when I talk about my emotions with anyone, I’m burdening them.  When I eat my emotions, I’m not burdening anyone.  Well, correction, I’m only putting the burden back on myself.  It’s quite ridiculous.  I have said it before but for some reason I cannot seem to make my brain accept it.

Over the past two weeks, there have been quite a few stress inducing incidents: news, doctors, tests, storms.  Normal people don’t eat through these things…or maybe they do but then they know how to stop or how to counteract it.

This past Wednesday,  I had my final appointment with the surgeon.  It was nice to finally be discharged from gall bladder issues but it was with some interesting advice.  My surgeon said that my goal over the winter months was to “not lose any weight but not gain any weight.”  I asked him to repeat it.  He did and then added that over the winter I should just maintain and then in the spring really go at my weight loss.  I was a little surprised at what he said.  Considering the amount I still have to work on getting to my end goal, it was a first to have a doctor not tell me to keep working hard.  I don’t know that I’m going to follow that advice 100% to be honest.  In my life, as far back as I can remember, I have never had a doctor tell me to not worry about losing weight for any period of time.   It was a bit of a shock.  My other two doctors are encouraging me to continue losing, though, because it will help fix some of my other issues, namely the PCOS.  I’m going to stick with two out of three doctors.  Plus, I really want to buy some new clothes.  I’m really tired of what’s in my closet right now!

Tomorrow is a new day.  A new chance to start fresh and a take today as my own.

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The Metal Square that Spits Out Numbers

Last week, I was bad.  I skipped my Weight Watchers meeting.  I wasn’t proud of it, I just couldn’t handle a gain.  This week I knew I had to be back OP ( which means on program as the WW people say) so that I could get rid of that gain and then some.  I was careful, aside from my choking episode.  I tracked for the most part. I still was a little lazy about tracking.  Need to fix that.  I made healthier, whole food choices.

I went to my weigh in tonight and was nervous.  I usually peek at the scale on Tuesday night just to see where I’m at.  I didn’t do that this past Tuesday because I was having the fish bone removed from my throat.  Yesterday, I didn’t peek either because I was just too nervous.  So, tonight, I made myself get in the car and drove to my weigh in.  I was ready to accept whatever that scale had to say.  I knew whatever it was, it was not going to define me.  It was just one more week, one more number.

Well…

I lost 1 whole pound from my last weigh in. That means I lost last week’s gain plus one pound!  Yay!

So, what lesson can we take away from this?

Skipping weigh in didn’t really do anything.  It was silly really because I didn’t know how much I had gained.  It was also silly because it was like I let that stupid metal square dictate how I was going to feel.  Why does that metal square have that power?  Why do I let it have that power?  I know that I’m not perfect.  I know (now) that I have to forgive myself more easily.  I know that I’m making changes.  So why does that number that comes from stepping on that little metal thing make me feel like crap if the number isn’t what I want it to be?

I think the answer is that I want results.  I want to know that I’m getting that much closer to my goals.  I just need to remember that the number that I see each week is just ONE indication of my progress.  There are other things I can look at if I need confirmation that I’m making progress.  I can look at the fact that when I go out to eat, I look for the chicken and the fish.  I ask for modifications to my plates (no butter, no mayo, steamed veggies).  I move more.

Why do I rely on that scale to be the main source of my progress? Is it because once you get to the number you’re supposed to be at, it’s more acceptable?  Or is it just that the number I’m currently at is a sad number?  Whatever it is, I need to let that number just be a number.  I need to look at other measures and put a little Pollyanna spin on this whole journey.

The week resets tomorrow.  The plan is to just keep tracking, just keep moving, and just keep thinking ahead.  I’m going to use the one foot in front of the other kind of thinking to get through each day.  That should close that 1.8 lb gap between me and that 50 lb charm that I keep playing with.  I will have it in my possession very soon!

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Confession Time: My Affair with Rolos

This week, I did not go to my weekly Weight Watcher’s meeting.  I knew it wasn’t going to be a good week and it was the first time in a LONG time that I did not want to see that scale number go up.  Let me rephrase that, I never want to see it go up but this week, I didn’t think I could handle it going up.  It would just upset me too much.

That would have been me last night had I gone to Weight Watchers.

I can hear you asking “How did you know it would be bad?”  I knew.  I tracked halfheartedly this week and when I did track, I was over.  I didn’t move as much as I should have and then there was Wednesday.  The Husband, thinking he was being kind and thoughtful, brought home a bag of Rolos.

Chocolate and Caramel in one delicious bite-sized candy = Bliss.

There is a time in every woman’s life when chocolate is necessary and a time when I crave it more than any other time.  Chocolate and salty foods – never fails.  I can mark my calendar as to when the craving will hit.  So the Husband heard me muttering about wanting some chocolate.  This was his attempt to help.  Now, I have been in Weight Watchers for almost 2 years.  I appreciate the fact that he thought of me, but why the bag? Why not just the little candy bar size?  Didn’t he realize that I have no will-power?  Didn’t he realize that I am most likely a food addict?  Didn’t he know that the bag would not last very long (which it didn’t)?

Now the trick is to minimize my shame over that fact.  Forgiveness is something I do not handle lightly.  I have been working on it as I make this journey.  Forgiveness is key.  If I cannot forgive myself when I make a mistake, I will never be able to succeed.  If I beat myself up over every Rolo I eat, then I will not succeed.  I am a master at guilting myself, convincing myself that it’s my fault.  Again, I could explain my past but that matter of sending you my therapy payment gets in the way every time, sorry.

Yeah – that was how I looked after throwing away the empty bag of Rolos.

So, the Rolos are gone.  Today has been good.  No processed foods.  No added sugars with the exception of my one cup of coffee this morning.  If the Rolos come back into the house, I will kindly ask the Husband to remove them or hide them.  They are not worth it.  Did I enjoy them?  Yes.  Did I enjoy what number the scale at home showed me?  No.  Were the Rolos, therefore, worth it?  Definitely not.

I am hoping that next week, I can report a loss.  I am hoping that next week, I will have not gone over any of my daily points allowances or gone over my calories one single day.  I am hoping that next week, I will have earned 14 activity points.  It’s the little things that make the biggest difference.  That being said, every day is a tracker day.  Every day is a good health guidelines day.  I cannot lose sight of that no matter what.  I know it sounds like a broken record but it’s important that I keep reminding myself of these things.  They seem like small steps to someone who has only a small amount to struggle with but for someone like me who is looking at losing a full-grown person – these small steps are crucial.  Talking about them is necessary.  Keeping them in my forefront is the only way I can ensure that my next snack or meal will be one that is on program.

There’s a quote someone on the Weight Watcher’s message boards used to share:

It’s time that I stick to my choice.

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Thursday’s Scale Tale

Yesterday was a good day.  I had my second post-op appointment.  It went very well.  Everything looks like it’s healing properly which was music to my hypochondriac ears.  The surgeon then got to the topic of my weight loss.  Thankfully, he was not of those surgeons that pushes Weight Loss Surgery.  He easily could have done the whole lap-band while he was taking the gallbladder out but it was not something he even brought up.  I don’t know if it’s because since day one, I told him I’ve been doing Weight Watchers but he just didn’t bring it up.

I told him how six days after surgery, I lost 7 lbs.  Then the following week, I had gained back 1.4.  Oddly, I wasn’t upset by it.  I knew that after a super big loss, I tend to gain a little the next week.  He agreed that the gain was good.  He reminded me that the loss was an unhealthy loss and that I should gain a little back and then start losing again.  By a little, I think tonight’s .2 gain was in line with that.

I did not feel badly about my gain tonight.   I know that I have one more week of mild activity before I ramp it up.  I am counting the days!

Tonight though, I did have the points plus left over and really all summer had been dying to have some fish and chips.  I was a little nervous to eat it because it’s fried and I had heard that for some people the fried foods didn’t really work very well after having the gallbladder removed.  It smelled delicious.

mmmmmm….fried fish and french fries….mmmmm

After a while of not eating something, you build it up in your head.  You imagine the first bite, you think about how good it’s going to taste.  Or maybe that just me?  Either way, I took that first bite and felt that it was good.  Though half way through the filet, I realized it wasn’t as good as I thought it would be.  It wasn’t as good as the barramundi we had two weeks ago.  It wasn’t as good as the Arctic Char that we cook.  It wasn’t as good as the non-fried stuff.  I don’t know why, but I was a little sad.  I loved fish and chips.  I guess the key word is “loved.”

It was a really big moment for me.  What if everything I have gone so long without eating no longer is good to me.  Would that be a bad thing?  Probably not.  Would I be missing anything?  No.  Will I gain weight back if I go back to eating those foods like I did before?  Most likely.

So why did I feel slightly dismayed?  After all it’s just food.  Part of this whole process for someone like me who developed a relationship with food that was not normal, is to re-learn that relationship.  Food is fuel.  Food is not comfort.  Food is not socializing.  Food is not something for when I’m bored.  Food does not make me feel better.  Food is fuel.  Food is nutrition.  Food is supposed to help make me healthy.

After this little brain storm this evening, I am understanding more.  I am realizing that I am slowly making the changes I need to make in order to make this a lasting lifestyle.  It’s slow but it’s progress.

Tomorrow starts a new WW week.  Tomorrow starts a new slate.  Tomorrow starts one more step toward the person who is inside me just itching to see the light of day.

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Surgery and the Scale

I was anxious to go to Weight Watchers this week.  I had my surgery a week ago.  I had gained a week ago.  I was pumped full of gas and drugs and was not really too active in the days following surgery.  I didn’t eat for three days because of the procedure.  I wanted to see what the scale would say after a week of fun like that.

I may have crossed my toes at one point too.

I was happily rewarded with a 7 pound loss.  SEVEN!  That meant a lot of things for me.

First, I lost one of my WW daily Points Plus Points.  I now get 44 PP per day.  That’s a lot but as long as it keeps going down, it means I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing.  44 PP is still enough for me to eat more than enough food.  44 PP is enough for me to still not even consider using my weekly Points allowance or any earned activity Points (when I am cleared to start exercising more).  44 Points is almost twice what a normal sized “overweight” person gets.  Hooray! I’m getting closer to that 29 PP daily target!

It works for the most part. But I’ve always had the best success with WW, when I actually stick with it.

Secondly, I am in a new decade.  I’m only 10 lbs away from what I weighed in high school which sadly was also ridiculously huge.  I don’t live in a little dream world and sadly, I never have.  When I can get to that weight that I remember Mrs. O’B recording on that fateful day in gym class, that weight that I had to pretend not to be on the verge of tears over, I will be officially in Virgin Fat Territory, or VFT (a WW term that some people use to describe the lowest weight they can remember being in their adult life).  I don’t know why I stick with that weight.  Maybe because it’s when I should have changed it all before it got so much more out of hand?  Maybe it’s because that’s when I was really just having all kinds of identity issues?  Oh wait, no, I’m confusing that last one with just plain old being in High School.  No, I think it’s just the number that embarrassed me the most.  No one should have that number in high school.  Yes, I know that some people I went to high school with may be reading this right now.  Hopefully, you were one of the nice people and didn’t make too much fun of me for being so ridiculously fat.  If you did make fun of me, I forgive you.  If you didn’t make fun of me and just thought I was a bitch, sorry.  I just had a lot going on and was way too wrapped up in my own head trying to deal with the fact that I was just not someone who “fit in” the way I wanted to “fit in.”  I could explain the vicious cycle of it all but then I would feel compelled to mail you a small check as a therapy payment.  God help me if and when my own daughter gets to that stage in life…but I digress.

Thirdly, I am only 1.2 pounds away from the ever-elusive first 50 pounds lost!  It has been slow.  I have had to remind myself that I didn’t gain the weight over night, it’s not going to come off overnight.  I haven’t given up on WW either.  This is the longest I have ever committed to it.  I have also seen some lasting changes in the choices I make which is another amazing victory unto itself.  The first leg of the journey will be marked by that 50 lb loss.  I still will have a ridiculously long way to go but I’m hoping that crossing that magic 50, a number I have never been able to hit will be good motivation for me to keep pushing to the second 50.  I know it will be.  It has to be because I’m tired of it and that is reason enough to keep moving forward.

I will drink a giant glass of water from this mug on the day I can say that. Fingers crossed, it may be next Thursday!

These things are kind of personal on a level that I didn’t originally intend to blog about but now that it’s out there, I feel like it will help me be more accountable.  As if an army of readers (yes, I pretend I have an army of readers, it makes me feel better) will help me stay on track.  I have my other list of reasons to keep moving forward stuck in various places so that every now and then I see them and I remember what I’m doing.

Hopefully in one week, I’ll be posting a picture of my little 50 lb WW charm.  It will be glorious!

 

 

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New Recipe Alert! (And It Tasted Good Too!)

The Husband works for a seafood wholesaler and from time to time, they get new fish that they sample.  The other day, he sent me a text saying he was bringing home barramundi.  I had only heard of this fish on TV on cooking shows.  I knew it was a Pacific fish and common near Australia (at least that’s what I thought I had heard).

Not knowing anything other than it was also called the Asian Sea Bass, I didn’t really know the best way to cook it.  Luckily, the internet is full of helpful chefs who graciously share their recipes.  If not, I would have probably just pan seared it with some butter and lemon, always a tried and true way to cook any fish really.

We found this amazing recipe on TheBetterFish.com.  After coming to an agreement that it sounded good based on the ingredients in it, I set to work making it.

I started with the Mango Salsa and here are the ingredients I used:

  • 1 mango, peeled and finely diced – I used a pre-cut and sliced mango to save time.  To be honest, I still stink at peeling a mango.
  • 1/4 cup minced red onion
  • 2 Tbsp chopped cilantro or mint – I went with cilantro.
  • Zest of 1 lime
  • 1 Tbsp fresh squeezed lime juice
  • Salt, pepper, and hot sauce to taste

Using the pre-cut mango made the salsa easy  to make.  After I made it, I set it aside and moved on to the next step as directed.

For fish:

  • 4 barramundi fillets with skin, 6-8 oz each – The Husband cut ours a little smaller like 4 oz portions but that was ok with me since it was for me and my Mom and The Husband doesn’t eat fish.
  • Salt and pepper
  • 2 tsp olive or canola oil, plus more for brushing the grill – Olive Oil is always my oil of choice.
  • 1/4 cup duck sauce (or sweet and sour sauce) – We used duck sauce as directed.
  • 1/4 cup teriyaki sauce (or Japanese soy sauce) – Oddly, we didn’t have any teriyaki sauce in the house so I used soy sauce.  Added a nice saltiness to the sweet.
  • 1 inch ginger root, peeled and finely grated – Next time, I’m going to use pre-grated ginger root.  Grating it was a PITA! Yes it probably tasted better but I’m lazy and it was time-consuming and annoying.  There I said it!
  • 1 tsp sesame seed oil

For avocados:

  • 2 avocados, halved lengthwise and pitted (don’t peel)
  • 2 tsp lime juice
  • 2 tsp olive or canola oil
  • Salt and pepper

Then it was on to the grilling!

  1. Pre-heat the grill to high.
  2. Dry fillets well on paper towels, season lightly with salt and pepper and rub with 2 tsp oil (go easy on the salt since teriyaki sauce is salty).
  3. In a small bowl combine, duck sauce, teriyaki sauce, ginger, and sesame seed oil. Mix well.
  4. Pick up a wad of paper towel with tongs, dip it in oil, and brush the preheated grill. Immediately place fillets on the grill, skin side down.  Cover the grill and cook for 3 minutes.
  5. Dislodge fillets from the grill using a fork, and then flip.  Brush the grilled side with teriyaki sauce.  Place avocados on the grill cut side down.
  6. After 2 minutes, turn avocados a quarter turn to create diagonal grill marks. Watch them carefully, as soon as they brown remove them off the grill and set aside. Flip fillets and brush with more teriyaki sauce. Cook 2 more minutes. At this point the avocados should be browned.
  7. Brush fillets with more teriyaki sauce and flip again. After 1 more minute, test fillets for doneness by inserting a knife in the thickest part of the fillet.
  8. In a small bowl, mix 2 tsp lime juice and 2 tsp oil and season generously with salt and pepper. Brush this mixture onto the cut sides of avocado. Stuff each avocado half with mango salsa and serve with fillets.

Can I just tell you – it was delicious?!  The lightness of the fish and the sweet and spicy salsa were a perfect combination of flavors.  Grilling an avocado was a first for me also and now it won’t be the last time I grill that wonderful fruit!  I can understand why this fish is a favorite of many.  It was light, not overly fishy, and is relatively easy to cook.

 

Picture from the website where I found the recipe…mine looked good but not that good.

I plugged the recipe into MyFitnessPal to get the individual serving info:

Calories: 369 Fat:12 Protein: 28 Fiber: 7 Carbs: 37

I then plugged it into my Weight Watchers calculator and it worked out to 9 Points Plus per serving. I’d call that a pretty awesome meal!

Tonight is weigh in so we’ll see how kind the scale is tonight.  I have been a nervous wreck about my surgery tomorrow but I don’t think I’ve been stress eating.  We shall see!

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This Pool Workout Kicked My…

You know how you sometimes read a pin on Pinterest and it has a title like “Hardcore Pool Workout” and you think really?  Is it really hardcore?

I tried this particular workout the other day.

Tone in the Pool

First, let me start off by saying that the water is where I feel most at home.  I love the freeing feeling of the water and the way it ignores all flaws of a woman who is not a bathing suit model in any sense of the word.  I have been a swimmer since I was three.  Took swimming lessons at the YMCA and have not stopped swimming since.  I love it.  So, if given the chance to do a workout in the pool, I will gladly accept this challenge.

That being said, this workout kicked my butt (insert a stronger word here if you like).  It says it’s like fun in the water.  Yeah, fun if you already have some kind of muscles and are not built like a sea mammal with layers of blubber that lives in the arctic.

The first of these exercises was the K-Tread.  Basically you tread water while doing Rockette kicks underwater in the deep end.  Not too hard.  Just keep your toes pointed.  Don’t want to be kicked off the line for not having pointy toes.

 

The next move was called “The Otter Roll.”  In this amazing move, you had to take a beach ball and roll around like one of those cute otters eating a sea urchin.  Doesn’t seem like it would be hard, but let me tell you, holding that ball, not so easy.

The “Ball Lever” was also seemingly easy until you try to do more than three in a row.

The “Pike Skull” was actually pretty easy.  I liked this one the best.  I could do this one all day and be happy.

Then to finish out this workout, you are supposed to end with the “Wave Maker.”  First, do not attempt the wave maker if there are children in the pool with you.  They may end up swallowing water.   Second, do not attempt the wave maker if your mother and her friend are sitting on the pool deck in the shallow end with their feet in the water, they may get soaked.  So, after you have adequately warned and/or cleared the pool of any potential drowning victims, you may begin this torturous exercise move.

All of these moves are to be done for 30 seconds and then repeated.  Eventually, the idea is to build up each one’s time and ultimately “tone” your body.  If you survive the first set of 30 second reps then you might end up with the ideal bathing suit body, or at least as close as us real people can imagine getting.

I don’t know that I will be as skeptical now of pins that are labeled “Ultimate,” “Hardcore,” or “Killer.”  They might not be lying.

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The Scale was Friendly Tonight

Thursdays are always busy.  Today we had the added dentist appointment for the Daughter.  She was a superstar!

After some work, it was time to head to my weekly Weight Watchers scale visit.

I was a little nervous.  Over the month of July, I had managed to gain back 3.2 pounds.  It slowly crept back on over three weeks.   I got a little lax and made some not so wise choices.  The truth is, when I get lazy, it’s because I start doubting myself and start questioning what I’m doing.  Two years and 42.6 lbs later, it’s slow going.  It’s the longest I have ever stuck with any weight loss program.  I keep telling myself that all of this didn’t go on overnight, it certainly isn’t going to come off overnight.  If only it could.  I’d even be ok if it was like Adipose just not if it was deadly.

BBC – Doctor Who – The Adipose

 

I was pleasantly surprised to find out that I had actually lost in one week what I had managed to gain over three weeks.  I felt accomplished.  It’s funny though because all I did was track, drink tons of water, and moved more.  It’s funny – that stuff actually works. Who knew?

I think that coming close to OD’ing on seafood this week might have also helped.  Lobster might not have agreed with my gallbladder for the last two weeks it is part of  me, but man, it was delicious.  I have to say, seafood is probably the best low-fat, low-calorie food out there.  I love it.  I also love the fact that the Husband brings home fresh seafood on a semi-regular basis.  Even better is this year’s lobster surplus which has dropped lobster to all-time low prices which means living in New England, we get to reap the benefit of very extremely fresh local lobsters.  So good!

Yummy!

Whatever it was, I have to figure out how to keep going this next week.  I am scheduled to have my gallbladder out in a week.  Not exactly excited for that but everyone keeps telling me how much better I will feel.  We shall see. All I keep thinking about is how much the loss will be after I have the organ removed.  I wonder how much it weighs. Will it be enough for me to see a new decade on the scale?  I’m going to keep my fingers crossed!

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