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Suck it Scale!

It is Thursday. Date night with the scale. I was apprehensive about it because I was afraid that I would have a gain after the previous night out with the husband. I made a rookie move and ordered fried clams! the night before weigh in. Of course that only added to my nerves.

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I faced the scale though and I was victorious!

Loss/Gain: -1.2
Lbs to next 5 lb goal: 3.8

 

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A Week of Recovery

It has been seven whole days since I posted last.  A lot has happened over the past week or so.  A lot that has been rattling around in my head.  That means it’s time to purge and guess what dear reader, you are the lucky ones who will be able to maybe see some sense in my chaos…

1)  Losing an ovary and a fallopian tube is strange.  I feel the space.  Maybe it’s phantom pains but I know it’s not there and I know that it feels different than my left side.  I have photos but will spare you all the images that show the dermoid and the paratubal cysts that had been growing.  It’s weird.  I suppose it’s good that I don’t need both.  Just weird…

I could always get this to replace that emptiness I feel...hahaha!

I could always get this to replace that emptiness I feel…hahaha!

2) Reading is wonderful.  I have had a lot of time during this week of recovery.  I have done A LOT of reading.  Reading for work about SEO practices, Social Media Marketing techniques, books for my own pleasure, magazines, flipboard articles…lots and lots of reading.  I had a preview of what my life will be like when I am old and cannot work.  I will read and never be bored.

3)  NaBloPoMo for May was another bust.  I had hoped it would keep me focused but the hormonal imbalance mentioned before made writing kind of a mess.  I was crying at the drop of a hat, kind of like just after I had given birth…weird…but not good for writing blog posts.  They would have been all over the map, kind of like this one, but more sappy and more whiney.

4) Memorial Day is here.  It’s the offical start of summer.  God grant me the patience to not kill the tourists who cannot drive the rotary.

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On a more serious note, Thank you to those who have fought and sacrificed to give me the chance to be a traveler and enjoy our country and all the freedoms that come with living here.

5) Weight loss better get easier now that I am done feeling like crap.  Once I am cleared for exercise, it’s on like Donkey Kong.  And yes, I just went there.

So, there we have it.  I am going to attempt to write out the rest of May’s NaBloPoMo and continue to write.  I am signing up for June because now it really is a personal challenge to finish one entire month.  I am determined.  I do not foresee any health issues (knock on wood) that will prevent me from being able to stay lucid enough to get in every day!

Summer – Bring. It. On.

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Eating the Emotions

It is not a secret, dear reader, that I go to Weight Watchers.  I do not hide that and have talked about it frequently in my blog.  I have not had the most successful year with this whole grand endeavor but, with surgeries and other glorious set backs, I have not gained everything back yet.  I consider that to be a success!

As I work through Weight Watchers and re-learning my relationship with food, I have had to do a lot of thinking and reflecting.  A great deal of that reflection always brings me back to the “why” of my eating.  The reasons that bring me my weekly Thursday night always come back to the fact that I am an emotional eater.

Makes sense to me...

Makes sense to me…

It really doesn’t matter what emotion it is that overwhelms me, I turn to comfort food.  My definition of comfort food would be ice cream, cookies, chocolate, cakes…anything filled with carbohydrates and sugary sweetness.  It’s not something I’m proud of but, it is something that I deal with on a daily basis.  I have to constantly remind myself that it’s ok to feel my emotions, not feed them.  I am not always successful.

Many people do this.  Most people though know when to stop and don’t feed every single emotion they feel.  Sadly, I am not most people.  It’s a tough habit to break and at the same time can be terrifying because I have to face the emotions that I sometimes don’t want to face.  I guess that’s part of being a grown up though.  Facing those feelings and knowing how to handle them is just one thing that needs a little extra work.

This post is part of the May NaBloPoMo.  This month’s theme is Comfort, though today’s post was a little uncomfortable, but that’s ok.  I did not reach for cookies to write this…  Today’s prompt was “What makes you reach for a comfort food?”

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Three Words

There are three words that are not said enough.  Even if you say them regularly, it’s not enough.

As I work on getting back on track with myself and my weight loss journey, I realize that there are so many other motivations here than just me feeling pretty for once in my life.  Being overweight has so many bad side effects.  Aside from the aesthetics and questionable styled clothing for us fat women, there are increased risks on almost every medical front.

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High Blood Pressure. Arthritis.  Gall Bladder Disease.  Cancer.  Heart Disease. Stroke. Type 2 Diabetes.  Sleep Apnea.

All of those things linger in the wings, waiting.  Some have already happened to me and now is the time to make sure none of the more serious ones happen.

There was a point where I would sometimes wonder about the next morning.  I’m too young to wonder those kinds of things but that’s how badly I felt I neglected myself.  Would the people I love know I felt that way if that next morning didn’t come?  Would they have heard me say it enough?

Right after my Nana and then my Aunt passed away, I kept thinking about how I didn’t say those words to them enough.  They just weren’t the type to say it that much.  You knew they loved you but it wasn’t something that was just openly said on a regular basis.  I couldn’t help but feel guilty, especially after my aunt died, that I didn’t tell them enough that I loved them.  I felt guilty that I didn’t call her more often to just catch up.

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With the Daughter, I tell her all the time.  I mean all the time. When she wakes up, when she gets her breakfast, when I drop her off at school, when I get home from work, all the time.  The husband ends every form of communication with those three words.  I tell my Mom.  I even say it to my brothers sometimes, but I think they think it’s a little weird.

The point is this.  Say those three words and mean them.  We never know when our time is up.  We never know when we’ll get another chance to say them so say them whenever you can.  Mean every one of those three words.  Feel the words.  Know their truth and make sure that those who love you know it too.

When was the last time you said those three words?

This post is part of the February 2013 NaBloPoMo.  The theme for February is “Love and Sex.”  Today’s prompt was “When was the last time you said, ‘I love you.’?”  Just remember they are powerful words so do not use them lightly.

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Clear Out The Distractions

There are times when I feel like I can’t do what I’ve set out to do. There’s so much involved with getting healthy and getting my life back to what it should be at my age. It’s a lot at times to take head on. The big picture can be intimidating and overwhelming because let’s face it, I don’t have just 25 lbs to lose. There are a lot of things I need to do to not let myself get side tracked.

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The list of what I need to do is simple.  Eat right, exercise, go to weigh in no matter what, track my every bite, lick, and taste, and forgive myself when I slip up rather than let it landslide into a food avalanche.

When I sit down to do the math, the total number of time that I need to lose five pounds can seem impossible. But, that smaller five pound goal seems more possible than the grand total!   That is the trick, you see.  I need to look at little victories.  In Weight Watchers, we call them the non-scale victories, things like losing inches, fitting into new clothing sizes, being able to say no to a gorgeous, decadent piece of cake even though every cell in your brain is screaming eat the cake!  Looking at these small victories and combining them with the larger more obvious ones like the number on that metal box many people torture themselves with, it is much easier to stay energized and focused on the task at hand.

The distractions are just that, they distract you from your goal.  You need to keep pushing, never give up, never surrender.

Never give up.  Never surrender.

“Never give up. Never surrender.” Commander Peter Quincy Taggart – Galaxy Quest Though, this picture is not one of Commander Taggart but rather of the Thermians. 

The reason I haven’t already gained back every pound I lost and then some on this round of Weight Watchers is that in the almost 3 years I’ve been going and weighing in, I haven’t given up. Yes, there have been some struggles (hello 2012 and the great gallbladder saga), but I haven’t given up.  I have faked it some weeks, some months.  I firmly believe that is why I have not gone back to where I was at the start.  I also believe that is why I will eventually get to my goal.  This week has been one of those fake it weeks.   I can admit that because I know that even though I’ve been faking it, I will still go to weigh in.  I will own the fact that I haven’t made the best choices this week.  I will do my best to clear out the distractions and keep moving forward.  In the end, it will happen.

Today’s post is part of January 2013 NaBloPoMo.  This month’s theme is energy.  Today’s prompt was, “Benjamin Franklin said, ‘Energy and persistence conquer all things.’ Do you agree or disagree?”  What do you think of Mr. Franklin’s observation? 

 

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The Cold that Keeps on Giving

We are sick.  Every one of us in the house has some form of a cold.   That means that we have been going through kleenex, well, like kleenex.

I should have bought the ones with lotion...

I should have bought the ones with lotion…

It’s funny, though, because we are all trying to treat it differently and having varying degrees of success.  It amazes me how the common cold just messes with people in so many different ways.  Science is cool.

The Husband is relying on his four-hour generic brand of mucinex.  It seems to work for the congestion but he is not taking anything for his cough.  His cough could wake the dead.  I’m not even kidding.  He wakes up in the morning and it’s an ear-piercing cough that just keeps going to the point that I find myself wondering if I need to call him some help.  He insists that the mucinex is all he needs.

The Daughter is too young for most medicines and the pediatrician said to let her cough it out.  We do use the vapor plugs and steam.  At night, we can give her delsym so that’s good at least for sleeping.

These things make the whole room smell like vapor rub without the mess!

These things make the whole room smell like vapor rub without the mess!

The Mother is using a combination of Tylenol, mucinex, and cough drops to fight her cold.  Though she seems to have had it worst and is trying her best to just get lots of sleep and stay hydrated.

As for me…I’ve been sick since Christmas eve.  First, I got a cold that turned into laryngitis, then it turned into that bronchial thing that required a massive dose of amoxicillin for 7 days.  That was fun.  So that cleared up but I never quite shook the cold.  So these past two days, the cold has been back full force.  Fun times.  I’m treating this lovely cold with Robitussin multi-symptom cold and Tylenol. It seems to be working which is good.

The past two nights, we all agreed that we should try to eat some spicy foods to help burn it out of our systems.  Last night we splurged with buffalo wings from the Nines and tonight was jambalaya.  I don’t know if it made it better or worse.  I just know that I cannot wait for this winter sick season to be over!

So worth the extra points to be able to breathe for about an hour or so after eating them!

So worth the extra points to be able to breathe for about an hour or so after eating them!

Today was nice though – a balmy 50 degrees and even with the ridiculous wind gusts, the fresh air felt so good.  The sun was warm and I almost forgot that it was January and that Monday is supposed to bring a few inches of snow.

The common cold always seems to elude a sure-fire cure.  I wish there was a way to just get rid of it after a day.  But as the saying goes, “If wishes and buts were cherries and nuts, we’d all have a merry Christmas!”

What do you like to do when you are battling the common cold??

 

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Sunday Goals

This weekend has not been the best for someone who is supposed to be on Weight Watchers.  Today alone, I had a 70 point day.  I know that I get a lot of points every day, but I dipped heavily (no pun intended) into my weekly allowance points.  For those not in the know, on Weight Watchers, everyone gets a daily points value based on their height, weight, age, and sex.  For me, I get 45 points a day.  On top of those daily points, everyone, no matter what their daily points value is, gets 49 weekly allowance points.  Think of them as your fun money, you know that little bit of your paycheck you set aside each week for something fun.  You don’t have to use them but if you have a busy weekend ahead, you can use them.   So today, I ate 70 points.  In one day.  Bleh.

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Tomorrow is Monday.  It’s the middle of my Weight Watchers week so that means it makes total sense to set my goals for the week tonight.

1) Keep tracking everything.  Even those dumb 70 point days.  Track it all.  Every bite, lick and taste.

2) Start stepping again.  When I was doing really well and the weight was just melting off, I was doing steps at night in front of the tv.  The Wii Fit has a section for “free step”  and you can switch back to the tv feed, watch your shows, and it will track your steps.  It was so easy to do the steps in front of a 30 minute sitcom.  My goal this week is to start off doing 1 sitcom a night.

3) More water.  I have cut back again on the Diet Coke but it’s still too much.  I need to get rid of it altogether.

4) Less sugar.  MyFitnessPal allows you to break out your food by nutrients and lately, my sugar amount has been so high.  Need to change that.

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I think those goals are pretty doable and won’t make me go too crazy this week.

In non-weight loss and health related goals:

1) Get back to trying one new recipe a week.  It was fun to pick out that one recipe a week and make the family into my guinea pigs.  I’ve been going through Pinterest today to figure out what that one recipe is.  I’m not sure that was a wise decision though because now I have a million new options to narrow it down to.

2) Write two blog posts a day.  One dedicated to NaBloPoMo and one dedicated to my new schedule that I’m setting up for myself.  Fun times.

3) Write my story for at least fifteen minutes a day.  No editing, no worrying about much other than just writing.

I’m going to keep these three for now until they are back to being second nature.

What are your goals for this week?

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Remember

It’s been three years.  Three years ago, on January 12,  my aunt died from cervical cancer.

My Aunt meeting the Daughter for the first time.  Her smile just shows how much she loved my little girl!

My Aunt meeting the Daughter for the first time. Her smile just shows how much she loved my little girl!

I know I have written about her before but I feel like it’s my duty to remind people of her battle because if one person gets a pap test because they read her story, then she will have been able to help one more person.

My aunt was a kind and caring woman in the truest sense of the word.  She never married and had no children of her own but she gave so much to so many.  Not only did she love me, my brothers, and my cousins as if we were her own kids, but also she was always giving of herself to her Girl Scouts troop.  She was always there for us: for advice on life, for concerts, for graduations, for birthdays, for everything really.  She was proud of all of us.

She taught me so many things from how quilt to how to hike safely up a mountain.  She also taught me the value of kindness by showing me how doing kind works was more important than just throwing money at a problem.  By doing small acts of kindness, you can change big problems, just look at all the girls she helped when she was so active in the Rhode Island Girl Scouts.

In Memory ♥

In Memory ♥

I miss her.  I miss how she loved playing with the Daughter in the few months she got to play with her.  I miss how she would have been able to talk to me about careers, travel, music, life.  So many things, little things, are missed and on certain days, I feel them more than others.  This past week, I have been feeling all kinds of things that if the Long Island Medium were to encounter me, I don’t doubt that she would have a reading for me.

Her illness seemed to come on pretty quickly.  One day she was ok and doing all the things she normally did.  Then what seemed to be overnight, she was feeling not good, though she didn’t talk about it much with anyone.  I saw the weight loss though.  I saw her in pain from her hip.  I knew that she was not well. It was hard for anyone to not notice it.  It just all happened so fast.  Cervical and Ovarian Cancer does that though.  They both start out without any symptoms – a very scary thought.

I know that this post may seem a bit heavy, but my point is this.  Schedule you annual Pap Test.  If you’re one of my gentleman readers, please encourage the women in your lives to schedule their annual exams and then promptly please schedule your own appropriate cancer screenings.  These exams and that simple test are enough to catch cancer in its earliest stages.  Often, with Cervical and Ovarian cancer, once you start to feel the symptoms it’s often too late to do much in terms of treatment because the symptoms are brought on, most times, when the cancer has spread.  This is why early detection is life saving.

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It’s ten minutes (at most for the entire exam and test) of discomfort versus a long, drawn-out, painful battle.  If you have never been for a GYN exam, ask a friend who has gone to go with you.  They don’t have to go into the room, but they can if you want or need them to.  They can even just talk to you about it and tell you their own experiences.  I know it sounds funny, but I know a lot of women who aren’t fond of going and avoid it if they can.  The problem is they CANNOT avoid it.  It’s so important to get regular screenings.  They really do save lives.

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Can You Bottle Some of That for Me?

Energy is something I pretend I don’t have.  Why do I pretend I don’t have it?  I am not totally sure but that is why I am recommitting (for the millionth time) to my lifestyle change.  I just need to find the energy.

As a kid, I remember having   a lot of energy.  I would stay outside all day and into the night, riding my bike everywhere, running around, playing.  I could wake up easily at 6 am without the help of an alarm. I never thought about where my energy came from, it was just there.  Just oozing from every bit of me was that childhood energy that I now watch the Daughter enjoy.

Now, I find that I am more productive between the hours of 9pm and midnight.  But my productivity during that time is not physical, it’s more mental work, writing, and planning the next day, and of course playing my games.  It doesn’t require the energy that I feel I am now missing in my life.

The solution is simple on paper, a little harder in practice.  I know that if I get moving more again, I will have the energy to get moving more.  I know that once I get moving, I will want to keep moving.  The energy from moving will keep my mind moving.  Will give me new avenues to explore.  It’s hard to not have the energy I want to have.  It’s hard to make the time for the steps that I need to regain my energy.  I simply have to choose my hard.

So on this first day of 2013, I’m making a promise to myself to have more energy.  More energy to play with the Daughter.  More energy to have fun adventures with the Family.  More energy to be me, the real me.  I’m nervous and excited all at once, but I am going to hold on to that memory of riding my bike and swimming and just living life to get me through the hard parts.

This year is going to be a grand adventure!

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Fears of the Flu

I was bad this year.  I have yet to get my flu shot.  Is it too late?  I hope not.  Though I don’t know that I can get it with this upper respiratory thing that is currently waging war against my immune system right now.  Brother #3 apparently has the flu.  He was here on Christmas.   I have been washing my hands like a maniac because of my own germs but man, I do not want to get the flu.

I do not want to be spreading this around...

I do not want to be spreading this around…

I know that after I finish fighting this cold, the first thing I’m going to do is go get my flu shot.  That’s a number one priority!

Here are some tips from the CDC on how to avoid the flu this season.  Some are common sense but they are all very smart and important tips to avoid the lovely flu virus.

I hope you all stay healthy this winter because even this cold, the one that has currently stolen my voice, is so very not fun to deal with.

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