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Friday Library Fun

It’s Friday.  I’d say TGIF if this really were my Friday but, working from home doesn’t really give one a true Friday.  Friday in our house, as you have probably read in the past if you’ve been following this infant blog, is story hour at the local public library.  I honestly think I look forward to it as much as the Daughter because reading is one of my most favorite things and my heart is so happy when my daughter shows her own love for a well-told story.

The library story hour started off with two great stories.

The Little Old Lady Who Was Not Afraid of Anything by Linda Williams

This story was great.  The repetition and addition of new sights and sounds made the kids all enjoy it that much more.  The little old lady does have some courage and in the end, the kids know that there is nothing to really be afraid of if we see it in a new light.  I have to say though, the scary pumpkin head…not so scary looking.  I personally thought it was kind of friendly looking.

We’re Going on a Ghost Hunt by Marcia Vaughan

“We’re going on a Ghost Hunt. We’re going on a Ghost Hunt. I’m not afraid! I’m not afraid!…”  This is like that old song we played in Girl Scouts, except instead of the bear hunt/lion hunt, we were on the search for a ghost on Halloween night while we were trick-or-treating.  I say we because after we read the story at story hour, the kids picked up some instruments and went on a ghost hunt, crashing cymbals, shaking maracas, and banging drums in the hopes of scaring the ghost out of the library.  Instead, the candy ghost left them all a lollipop and they were quite thrilled with their find.

As for our picks for this week’s bedtime stories:

Three By the Sea by Mini Grey

We had borrowed this book a few months ago and it’s a sweet story of three friends who live in a house by the ocean.  Once night a stranger washes ashore and tries to sell them something they don’t really need.  As the three friends drift apart because of the promise of something better, they discover what they truly are looking for and what they truly need.  A sweet story of friendship and the dangers of letting others influence your what you know in your heart to be true.

Cinder Hazel by Deborah Nourse Lattimore

A very cute new take on the classic Cinderella.  Lots of little giggles through this sweet tale.

Monsters Eat Whiny Children by Bruce Eric Kaplan

I picked this up because I was thinking about how the Daughter would eventually start hitting that point in the day where Sassy Molassy takes over my usually sweet and loving child.  Sassy Molassy is the Daughter’s alter ego and she does nothing but cry and whine.  This book is my (most likely futile) attempt at trying to curtail the whiny Sassy Molassy.  This is a very endearing tale though, about a monster who cannot decide how to cook the whiny children recently caught.

A Bedtime for Bear by Bonny Becker

A funny tale of two friends who decide to have a sleepover.  The only problem, as many moms and dads are aware, is that both have very different bedtime rituals.  Another fun read for just before bed – the Daughter really enjoyed it!


Those Darn Squirrels by Adam Rubin

When the grouchy old man in the neighborhood notices that the birds he loves to watch and paint are fighting off a very clever family of squirrels (genius squirrels to be exact), he tries to stop them from stealing all the food.  That is until the birds fly south for the winter and he finds himself lonely.  Then the squirrels hatch a plan of their own.  Even a grumpy old man can appreciate a grand act of kindness.

I like to share our reading selections each week because I know there are so many stories out there.  Some are instant classics and others kind of quietly sit on a shelf just hoping that someone, sometime will just pick it up and read it.  Those books need to get some credit too.  Plus, I know I love getting good book recommendations, whether it’s a book for me or one to be shared.

Reading is so important and builds so many skills but most importantly, it allows kids to grow their imaginations.  If you have a child and that child asks you to read to them, try to make every effort to put down what you’re doing and read that book to them.  In the end, that is the memory that will stay with them.

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Confession Time: My Affair with Rolos

This week, I did not go to my weekly Weight Watcher’s meeting.  I knew it wasn’t going to be a good week and it was the first time in a LONG time that I did not want to see that scale number go up.  Let me rephrase that, I never want to see it go up but this week, I didn’t think I could handle it going up.  It would just upset me too much.

That would have been me last night had I gone to Weight Watchers.

I can hear you asking “How did you know it would be bad?”  I knew.  I tracked halfheartedly this week and when I did track, I was over.  I didn’t move as much as I should have and then there was Wednesday.  The Husband, thinking he was being kind and thoughtful, brought home a bag of Rolos.

Chocolate and Caramel in one delicious bite-sized candy = Bliss.

There is a time in every woman’s life when chocolate is necessary and a time when I crave it more than any other time.  Chocolate and salty foods – never fails.  I can mark my calendar as to when the craving will hit.  So the Husband heard me muttering about wanting some chocolate.  This was his attempt to help.  Now, I have been in Weight Watchers for almost 2 years.  I appreciate the fact that he thought of me, but why the bag? Why not just the little candy bar size?  Didn’t he realize that I have no will-power?  Didn’t he realize that I am most likely a food addict?  Didn’t he know that the bag would not last very long (which it didn’t)?

Now the trick is to minimize my shame over that fact.  Forgiveness is something I do not handle lightly.  I have been working on it as I make this journey.  Forgiveness is key.  If I cannot forgive myself when I make a mistake, I will never be able to succeed.  If I beat myself up over every Rolo I eat, then I will not succeed.  I am a master at guilting myself, convincing myself that it’s my fault.  Again, I could explain my past but that matter of sending you my therapy payment gets in the way every time, sorry.

Yeah – that was how I looked after throwing away the empty bag of Rolos.

So, the Rolos are gone.  Today has been good.  No processed foods.  No added sugars with the exception of my one cup of coffee this morning.  If the Rolos come back into the house, I will kindly ask the Husband to remove them or hide them.  They are not worth it.  Did I enjoy them?  Yes.  Did I enjoy what number the scale at home showed me?  No.  Were the Rolos, therefore, worth it?  Definitely not.

I am hoping that next week, I can report a loss.  I am hoping that next week, I will have not gone over any of my daily points allowances or gone over my calories one single day.  I am hoping that next week, I will have earned 14 activity points.  It’s the little things that make the biggest difference.  That being said, every day is a tracker day.  Every day is a good health guidelines day.  I cannot lose sight of that no matter what.  I know it sounds like a broken record but it’s important that I keep reminding myself of these things.  They seem like small steps to someone who has only a small amount to struggle with but for someone like me who is looking at losing a full-grown person – these small steps are crucial.  Talking about them is necessary.  Keeping them in my forefront is the only way I can ensure that my next snack or meal will be one that is on program.

There’s a quote someone on the Weight Watcher’s message boards used to share:

It’s time that I stick to my choice.


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Thursday’s Scale Tale

Yesterday was a good day.  I had my second post-op appointment.  It went very well.  Everything looks like it’s healing properly which was music to my hypochondriac ears.  The surgeon then got to the topic of my weight loss.  Thankfully, he was not of those surgeons that pushes Weight Loss Surgery.  He easily could have done the whole lap-band while he was taking the gallbladder out but it was not something he even brought up.  I don’t know if it’s because since day one, I told him I’ve been doing Weight Watchers but he just didn’t bring it up.

I told him how six days after surgery, I lost 7 lbs.  Then the following week, I had gained back 1.4.  Oddly, I wasn’t upset by it.  I knew that after a super big loss, I tend to gain a little the next week.  He agreed that the gain was good.  He reminded me that the loss was an unhealthy loss and that I should gain a little back and then start losing again.  By a little, I think tonight’s .2 gain was in line with that.

I did not feel badly about my gain tonight.   I know that I have one more week of mild activity before I ramp it up.  I am counting the days!

Tonight though, I did have the points plus left over and really all summer had been dying to have some fish and chips.  I was a little nervous to eat it because it’s fried and I had heard that for some people the fried foods didn’t really work very well after having the gallbladder removed.  It smelled delicious.

mmmmmm….fried fish and french fries….mmmmm

After a while of not eating something, you build it up in your head.  You imagine the first bite, you think about how good it’s going to taste.  Or maybe that just me?  Either way, I took that first bite and felt that it was good.  Though half way through the filet, I realized it wasn’t as good as I thought it would be.  It wasn’t as good as the barramundi we had two weeks ago.  It wasn’t as good as the Arctic Char that we cook.  It wasn’t as good as the non-fried stuff.  I don’t know why, but I was a little sad.  I loved fish and chips.  I guess the key word is “loved.”

It was a really big moment for me.  What if everything I have gone so long without eating no longer is good to me.  Would that be a bad thing?  Probably not.  Would I be missing anything?  No.  Will I gain weight back if I go back to eating those foods like I did before?  Most likely.

So why did I feel slightly dismayed?  After all it’s just food.  Part of this whole process for someone like me who developed a relationship with food that was not normal, is to re-learn that relationship.  Food is fuel.  Food is not comfort.  Food is not socializing.  Food is not something for when I’m bored.  Food does not make me feel better.  Food is fuel.  Food is nutrition.  Food is supposed to help make me healthy.

After this little brain storm this evening, I am understanding more.  I am realizing that I am slowly making the changes I need to make in order to make this a lasting lifestyle.  It’s slow but it’s progress.

Tomorrow starts a new WW week.  Tomorrow starts a new slate.  Tomorrow starts one more step toward the person who is inside me just itching to see the light of day.


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Surgery and the Scale

I was anxious to go to Weight Watchers this week.  I had my surgery a week ago.  I had gained a week ago.  I was pumped full of gas and drugs and was not really too active in the days following surgery.  I didn’t eat for three days because of the procedure.  I wanted to see what the scale would say after a week of fun like that.

I may have crossed my toes at one point too.

I was happily rewarded with a 7 pound loss.  SEVEN!  That meant a lot of things for me.

First, I lost one of my WW daily Points Plus Points.  I now get 44 PP per day.  That’s a lot but as long as it keeps going down, it means I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing.  44 PP is still enough for me to eat more than enough food.  44 PP is enough for me to still not even consider using my weekly Points allowance or any earned activity Points (when I am cleared to start exercising more).  44 Points is almost twice what a normal sized “overweight” person gets.  Hooray! I’m getting closer to that 29 PP daily target!

It works for the most part. But I’ve always had the best success with WW, when I actually stick with it.

Secondly, I am in a new decade.  I’m only 10 lbs away from what I weighed in high school which sadly was also ridiculously huge.  I don’t live in a little dream world and sadly, I never have.  When I can get to that weight that I remember Mrs. O’B recording on that fateful day in gym class, that weight that I had to pretend not to be on the verge of tears over, I will be officially in Virgin Fat Territory, or VFT (a WW term that some people use to describe the lowest weight they can remember being in their adult life).  I don’t know why I stick with that weight.  Maybe because it’s when I should have changed it all before it got so much more out of hand?  Maybe it’s because that’s when I was really just having all kinds of identity issues?  Oh wait, no, I’m confusing that last one with just plain old being in High School.  No, I think it’s just the number that embarrassed me the most.  No one should have that number in high school.  Yes, I know that some people I went to high school with may be reading this right now.  Hopefully, you were one of the nice people and didn’t make too much fun of me for being so ridiculously fat.  If you did make fun of me, I forgive you.  If you didn’t make fun of me and just thought I was a bitch, sorry.  I just had a lot going on and was way too wrapped up in my own head trying to deal with the fact that I was just not someone who “fit in” the way I wanted to “fit in.”  I could explain the vicious cycle of it all but then I would feel compelled to mail you a small check as a therapy payment.  God help me if and when my own daughter gets to that stage in life…but I digress.

Thirdly, I am only 1.2 pounds away from the ever-elusive first 50 pounds lost!  It has been slow.  I have had to remind myself that I didn’t gain the weight over night, it’s not going to come off overnight.  I haven’t given up on WW either.  This is the longest I have ever committed to it.  I have also seen some lasting changes in the choices I make which is another amazing victory unto itself.  The first leg of the journey will be marked by that 50 lb loss.  I still will have a ridiculously long way to go but I’m hoping that crossing that magic 50, a number I have never been able to hit will be good motivation for me to keep pushing to the second 50.  I know it will be.  It has to be because I’m tired of it and that is reason enough to keep moving forward.

I will drink a giant glass of water from this mug on the day I can say that. Fingers crossed, it may be next Thursday!

These things are kind of personal on a level that I didn’t originally intend to blog about but now that it’s out there, I feel like it will help me be more accountable.  As if an army of readers (yes, I pretend I have an army of readers, it makes me feel better) will help me stay on track.  I have my other list of reasons to keep moving forward stuck in various places so that every now and then I see them and I remember what I’m doing.

Hopefully in one week, I’ll be posting a picture of my little 50 lb WW charm.  It will be glorious!




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This Pool Workout Kicked My…

You know how you sometimes read a pin on Pinterest and it has a title like “Hardcore Pool Workout” and you think really?  Is it really hardcore?

I tried this particular workout the other day.

Tone in the Pool

First, let me start off by saying that the water is where I feel most at home.  I love the freeing feeling of the water and the way it ignores all flaws of a woman who is not a bathing suit model in any sense of the word.  I have been a swimmer since I was three.  Took swimming lessons at the YMCA and have not stopped swimming since.  I love it.  So, if given the chance to do a workout in the pool, I will gladly accept this challenge.

That being said, this workout kicked my butt (insert a stronger word here if you like).  It says it’s like fun in the water.  Yeah, fun if you already have some kind of muscles and are not built like a sea mammal with layers of blubber that lives in the arctic.

The first of these exercises was the K-Tread.  Basically you tread water while doing Rockette kicks underwater in the deep end.  Not too hard.  Just keep your toes pointed.  Don’t want to be kicked off the line for not having pointy toes.


The next move was called “The Otter Roll.”  In this amazing move, you had to take a beach ball and roll around like one of those cute otters eating a sea urchin.  Doesn’t seem like it would be hard, but let me tell you, holding that ball, not so easy.

The “Ball Lever” was also seemingly easy until you try to do more than three in a row.

The “Pike Skull” was actually pretty easy.  I liked this one the best.  I could do this one all day and be happy.

Then to finish out this workout, you are supposed to end with the “Wave Maker.”  First, do not attempt the wave maker if there are children in the pool with you.  They may end up swallowing water.   Second, do not attempt the wave maker if your mother and her friend are sitting on the pool deck in the shallow end with their feet in the water, they may get soaked.  So, after you have adequately warned and/or cleared the pool of any potential drowning victims, you may begin this torturous exercise move.

All of these moves are to be done for 30 seconds and then repeated.  Eventually, the idea is to build up each one’s time and ultimately “tone” your body.  If you survive the first set of 30 second reps then you might end up with the ideal bathing suit body, or at least as close as us real people can imagine getting.

I don’t know that I will be as skeptical now of pins that are labeled “Ultimate,” “Hardcore,” or “Killer.”  They might not be lying.

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The Scale was Friendly Tonight

Thursdays are always busy.  Today we had the added dentist appointment for the Daughter.  She was a superstar!

After some work, it was time to head to my weekly Weight Watchers scale visit.

I was a little nervous.  Over the month of July, I had managed to gain back 3.2 pounds.  It slowly crept back on over three weeks.   I got a little lax and made some not so wise choices.  The truth is, when I get lazy, it’s because I start doubting myself and start questioning what I’m doing.  Two years and 42.6 lbs later, it’s slow going.  It’s the longest I have ever stuck with any weight loss program.  I keep telling myself that all of this didn’t go on overnight, it certainly isn’t going to come off overnight.  If only it could.  I’d even be ok if it was like Adipose just not if it was deadly.

BBC – Doctor Who – The Adipose


I was pleasantly surprised to find out that I had actually lost in one week what I had managed to gain over three weeks.  I felt accomplished.  It’s funny though because all I did was track, drink tons of water, and moved more.  It’s funny – that stuff actually works. Who knew?

I think that coming close to OD’ing on seafood this week might have also helped.  Lobster might not have agreed with my gallbladder for the last two weeks it is part of  me, but man, it was delicious.  I have to say, seafood is probably the best low-fat, low-calorie food out there.  I love it.  I also love the fact that the Husband brings home fresh seafood on a semi-regular basis.  Even better is this year’s lobster surplus which has dropped lobster to all-time low prices which means living in New England, we get to reap the benefit of very extremely fresh local lobsters.  So good!


Whatever it was, I have to figure out how to keep going this next week.  I am scheduled to have my gallbladder out in a week.  Not exactly excited for that but everyone keeps telling me how much better I will feel.  We shall see. All I keep thinking about is how much the loss will be after I have the organ removed.  I wonder how much it weighs. Will it be enough for me to see a new decade on the scale?  I’m going to keep my fingers crossed!

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Dentists are not evil. Dentists are NOT evil!

Growing up, I didn’t go to the Dentist much.  It’s a long story, trust me.  Now as an adult, I am paying the price for all those years.  And what a price it is because let me tell you, Dental Insurance is insane.  At least we have it, yes but, seriously…it’s insane how quickly you hit that $1,000 limit if you need to have work done.  INSANE.  But I digress…

Tomorrow, the Daughter has her very first dentist appointment.  3 years old and she’s going in for her first cleaning.  Luckily, our neighbor, someone she loves, is the dental hygienist so this should make the whole experience a fun one.  Yes, I’m driving almost an hour to get there but if it means that the Daughter won’t grow up with my complete and utter fear of Dentists and all their instruments of doom, so be it.

It’s funny how fear can really bring a relatively smart person to do  pretty stupid things.  How many other fears have been known to hold people back?  There are the extreme cases, like the Howard Hughes of the world.  But there are also the smaller fears, like spiders. that can prevent someone from going into a room where they just saw the hairy, eight-legged, fanged arachnid.

I hope that by starting her out young and getting her into good habits now, habits I had but didn’t always have reinforced, she will enjoy relatively trauma-free dental visits for the majority of her life and keep that smile perfect so we can get more pictures like this one…

Wonder Woman says “Cheese!”


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