It is not a secret, dear reader, that I go to Weight Watchers. I do not hide that and have talked about it frequently in my blog. I have not had the most successful year with this whole grand endeavor but, with surgeries and other glorious set backs, I have not gained everything back yet. I consider that to be a success!
As I work through Weight Watchers and re-learning my relationship with food, I have had to do a lot of thinking and reflecting. A great deal of that reflection always brings me back to the “why” of my eating. The reasons that bring me my weekly Thursday night always come back to the fact that I am an emotional eater.
It really doesn’t matter what emotion it is that overwhelms me, I turn to comfort food. My definition of comfort food would be ice cream, cookies, chocolate, cakes…anything filled with carbohydrates and sugary sweetness. It’s not something I’m proud of but, it is something that I deal with on a daily basis. I have to constantly remind myself that it’s ok to feel my emotions, not feed them. I am not always successful.
Many people do this. Most people though know when to stop and don’t feed every single emotion they feel. Sadly, I am not most people. It’s a tough habit to break and at the same time can be terrifying because I have to face the emotions that I sometimes don’t want to face. I guess that’s part of being a grown up though. Facing those feelings and knowing how to handle them is just one thing that needs a little extra work.
This post is part of the May NaBloPoMo. This month’s theme is Comfort, though today’s post was a little uncomfortable, but that’s ok. I did not reach for cookies to write this… Today’s prompt was “What makes you reach for a comfort food?”