A couple of years ago, our church gave out these free books. My daughter took one because the jacket was bright yellow and looked like an emoji. She was greatly disappointed to find out it was not a book about emojis and had no pictures in it. We still took a free copy home (because who says no to free?). I put it in my ever-growing “to be read” pile and there it sat, collecting dust. I just did not have time to pick up any book, let alone a free book that the Catholic Church suggested we read.
A few weeks turned to a few months and well, you know the cliche passage of time. I was cleaning for the past holiday season and saw it sitting in the pile of books I was going to relocate and figured, why not just do this. Why not see if the inside jacket cover would live up to its promises. The holidays are always a weird emotional roller coaster for me. Childhood PTSD? Perhaps. Rockwellian fantasies of a Currier & Ives scene? Maybe. Whatever the reason, I have a hard time mentally around December. Throw some family health crises into the mix and it was a season ripe for contemplating death, the meaning of life, and what I’m going to do with my last year in my 30s when I feel as though I have done nothing of consequence – you know, typical mid-life crisis stuff. Seeing this book on the stairs might have been construed as a sign by some and maybe I subconsciously took it as a sign too because I picked it up and started reading it.
Who knew this book would have homework?
I have committed to actively reading it. So, here I sit, having read the first chapter and starting my list of what I’ve resisted over the last week. I’m going to list it out day by day, because that way I can see what
a lazy b I’ve been I have been resisting.
- Waking up and getting up once I woke up.
- Getting dressed first then making breakfast.
- Getting the kitchen cleaned this morning.
- Getting laundry started.
- Cleaning my pile of clothing in my room.
- Making a better choice about the smoothie at lunch.
- Putting away the laundry in the living room.
- Taking out the recycling.
- Putting away the groceries.
- Drinking my water
- Folding the laundry
- Cleaning the kitchen (again)
- Going to Church
- Making sure I packed my lunch with points friendly foods
- Making sure to take out something for dinner
- The laundry needed attention still…
The week continued and I saw a pattern emerge. I always knew I was a procrastinator. Having to write it down, I really had to face it head on. I put off things because I just sometimes don’t want to do it. It was not surprising but the list was a lot of the same and it let my procrastinating ways slap me in the face. Now that I see the pattern, this week, I’m going to try to not resist those things which I guess means I need to go fold some laundry right now.